Lost.

Hey readers! I know I have not been blogging for a Verrrryyy looong time. I have nothing to blog about. But, for now, I have something to share with you readers out there. Something that is so precious to me that I makes me feel lost when he isn't there...

My daddy....

Remember a post that I blogged about him falling sick long time ago. Well.. his condition is worst than that right now.

Let me tell you from the start...

On the 19th oct, he was supposed to go for his cardiac scan at TTSH. Before this, he has been feeling breathless and always micturate at night for the past 1week. I felt really guilty as I ddnt actually bring him to see the Dr. He was reluctant as well.

It goes on till Monday, when my sister sms me, saying that my dad has to be sent to A&E due to pulmonary edema ( water in the lungs ). I had to skip my lessons to rush down to TTSH to look at my dad's condition. Moreover , his heart is really weak and is not pumping very well. Few hours later, the nurse called, saying that my dad was sent to the resuscitation room for observation. Thank Allah, nothing happened to him. He was sent to general ward. Dr gave him Lasix to remove the water from his lungs and he was on fluid restriction of 800mls. My dad was also on Non- rebreathing mask 100%.

Everything was stable. Vital signs are stable. Spo2 was maintained at 95% above. And, the good thing was, Dr changed the mask to nasal prong on 4L on the same day. The bad news is that, his wound is infected. Dr claimed he might have sepsis- which is a serious medical condition that is characterized by a whole-body inflammatory state which can actually cause death. Dr predicted that he may not live long-perhaps 1 or 2mths. I believed my dad is a strong man who can overcome all this. Dr also gave an option of amputation but mummy and sister refused.

Eventually, Thursday night, my sister called, and said that my dad complained of chest pain and breathlessness. He was sent to a High- dependency ward, where he was on strict observation. Dr noted his condition was still not stable. From there, they transfer him to ICU and he is on strict monitoring. He is conscious but, we are not allowed to let him talk much. It saddens me when i dropped by to visit my dad because, I hadn't seen him in such a bad state before. He reminded me of my late grandma...

For now, he's on venturi mask. Alhamdullillah. My prayers for my dad will not stop here. I really love him so much and I would not want to lose him. I love you ayah...

Missing

Hi. Today's Wednesday. Tomorrow is Thursday. Day after is Friday...

Hate to say this but, honestly, time is moving really fast.

Earth is becoming old.

MORE humans are acting like monkeys ( Darwinism ).

Famous people are living the Earth.

M.J had passed away.

More pollution are arising.

More bombings are occuring.

More people want to be younger.

Others, just waiting for their time to go.

Women become man, Man become woman.

Economic fluctuations.

Riots.

People losing jobs.

What else is there to prove?

Seriously. Time is running. Not crawling ..

Face it. It's coming to an end...

Birthday cum 1year..

First and foremost, I want to wish myself a happy 1 year aniv and Happy Birthday To Baby!

I guess, the digits have no meaning at all. It's how much we've gone through things together in our lives. It's really not easy living IN a world full of lies. But, sometimes, we really have to take it slow. If u ask me how, well, cleverly handle it la. I've been saying I will try my best for the past 6 mths? But, what's the results? I mean, Im not strong, as you all know...

How else am I going to prove all these things?

Love is there..
Beliefs?
Yea. You got me right ...

still living and maintaining to good health.
Stay cool guys.

-Lin

Shtupid

stupid

Stupid

STUPID !

Random

Hello. Bye.

RanDoom

Hey guys ! It's been quite a while- or shall I say- LONG while since I last blogged.
My urge to blog has been depleting week by week. Eversince I ended my attachment, I was soo into my holiday-mood as I'm only left with 7days to school re-open. & I'll be year 2 ! Woohoo!

My attachment was not as perfect. Many people asked me one common question.

" Why do you choose nursing?"

I can't find an answer, actually. My brain have to work for a few seconds in searching for an answer. So, what did I answer?

" I love communicating and providing holistic care towards people whom I've yet met and seeing the wonderous smile on their faces which actually satisfies me. When they are happy, it makes me happy for them as well.. "

tats all.
muacks!

Missing

Hello again. I'm pretty bored right now.. Haiz..
Life has been well- I guess.
Read a friend's blog ..

Changes here and there huh?

yea. Me too dear.

Trying to catch up with what I became in the past.

But, thankfully, it was not that bad..

I've stepped into a semi- adulthood

Where there are different age group of people we meet

And interactions all...

But what matters is that we try to sort of be the way we are.

Faking doesn't really help right?

So there you go..

Be yourself, do whatever you can do :)

*muacks !

Back

Hey guys! My blog is dead, isnt it? well... I'll keep it alive if I can.

Anyway, back from Endau Rompin on 9th march. Check out my photos in facebook yeah? :)

*muacks!